Wednesday, May 12, 2010

so much to talk about this morning, part II

My first class is settled down to read for a little bit (on Wednesdays we take some time to stretch out on the floor and read what we want to read - my favorite day of the week bar none) so I can finish my thoughts here. And they are mostly about school today, so...maybe boring for some of you. I'm sorry.

First I'd like to highlight one of my kids, with his permission of course. Each year, the Red Mountain Writing Project hosts an event called Writing With the Stars where National Writing Project teacher-consultants honor one of their outstanding writers at a reception where the students get to share their work.

I'd like you to meet Adonis. He is my honoree this year, and last night he shared the prologue of his science fiction novel (he's on chapter 3 now) called Machine Haven. I'm telling you, the kid is talented. Up until the second he got up to read his work, he was furiously scribbling and editing his prologue. He is hard core. And his writing actually makes me want to read science fiction. That's the stuff of a writer, right there.


Look for him on bookshelves in a few years - you'll likely find him there.

Along that vein, I need your advice. I'm starting a new blog where my kids can share what they've written. I want to learn WordPress, because it's more conducive to multiple contributors, plus it just looks better. I need a name for this new blog.

I thought of Downtown Shakespeare, or By the Waters of Babylon (a short story we read by Stephen Vincet Benet that we love) but that's all I've come up with. Any ideas, friends?

Ultimately, the kids will decide, but I need some good options to put on the table so it won't end up with a name like Miss Hardin and the ones who test her gangster.

Meanwhile, I have an entire class that wants to nominate me for What Not to Wear.

I'm serious! I didn't think I was that bad of a dresser, but to be honest I don't really give much thought to what I put on in the morning. They think they can get me on the show, though, and I'm all for it - $5,000 and a makeover! Bring it! To quote the one who is spearheading this effort,

"Miss Hardin, it's not that you're a terrible dresser, it's just that you're almost 29 and you look like you're 17. We can fix that for you."

Amen, sister. While I do hope I have that problem when I'm 50, I think it would behoove me now to look like someone who pays taxes.

msk(s), what say you?

so much to talk about this morning...

...and so little time before 104 adolescents descend upon me, bright eyed and bushy tailed.

Onward.

1. Awkward conversation at Wal-Mart last night that I can't not share with you. Why does some sort of ridiculousness ensue every time I buy a bottle of wine?

Me, at the self checkout machine: "Excuse me, could you please put in the approval code for me to buy this wine?"

Wal-Mart girl on machine duty: "Have you gone and broken my machine little girl?"

Me: "I don't think so. I think it just wants you to verify that I am of age."

WMGOMD: "Oh. Could I see your ID please?"

Me: "Sure - here you go."

WMGOMD: "I know JUST what I was doing in 1981."

Me: "Really? What's that?"

WMGOMD: "Teething."

Me: "You remember teething?"

WMGOMD: "I was born in 1979."

Me, a little confused: "Gotcha."

WMGOMD, after squiting at my ID again: "A lioness, I see!"

Me: "What?"

WMGOMD: "You're a Leo, like me."

And then...

She roared at me.

I just looked at her there for a minute, not really sure how to respond.

So she roared again.

And for the duration of our conversation, she continued to refer to me as either "Leo" or "Lioness."

I'm still mildly disturbed by this.

The gremlins have descended upon me, so I need to wrap this up here. But check back later...I've more to share with you.

Sunday, May 9, 2010

oh my goodness.

I have got to own this.

Not only would I personally love to have this because I love stories and writing, but I have visions of summer story workshops, summer writing classes, yada yada I'm sure there is a better name for that that I can't think of right now (Mere you could help with this, a la Severed Wasp).

Seriously - I could rack up some serious mileage with this set of DVD's in my classroom, on my own, and in some fun little summer small group sessions with some of my favorite middle school rascals...hhmmm...my wheels are spinning at 90 mph.

Donald, thanks for sharing the wealth.

And, will you marry me?

Saturday, May 8, 2010

the best teacher appreciation week gift ever

*Update: I started The Heart Mender yesterday, and I love it so far...it's a WWII mystery of sorts, and it's non-fiction, for the most part. I completely didn't realize it was a true story. Since there are just 2 people who want the book, both of you will get a copy! So if anyone else wants their name in the hat, comment now - giving away tomorrow!*




Can you see my name written on the lid?
You should know that I have no special affinity for peanut butter. I like it, but this was a completely random gift. And I was DELIGHTED.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

the beach and a giveaway!!!

There are few things that sadden me more than driving home from the beach.

Time at the beach, particularly in a beach house with family, is a respite like none other. Really. My family spent a week in Gulf Shores in a lovely beach house (a client of my dad's has graciously let us stay there for the past several years) right on the beach.

We lay around, we play games, watch movies, lounge on the beach, kayak, cook, read, drink a lot of coffee and wine, throw the frisbee (this year we added tennis), and other sundry activities. It is my favorite week out of the whole year.

Anyway. I just got in from this year's trip - the rest of my family will be there till Thursday, but I just couldn't in good conscience take off more than 3 days of school and I wish I was still there. We did just beat the oil to the Alabama coast, for those of you wondering. It wasn't supposed to get there before tomorrow, but they did start shutting down all the fishing.

I only have a few pictures and like last year, they're mostly of Nita. We all looked pretty gross the whole time and who wants pictures of us anyway when we've got this little girl to take pictures of?
I haven't posted recent pictures of her in a long time so I figure I'm due a few without being obnoxious.


Isn't she the sweetest thing?

Okay, on to the giveaway! I've never done a give away on my blog before, so this should be fun. As you may know, I review books on occasion for Thomas Nelson's Book Review Blogger program. Since my review of The Sacred Meal, I've not signed up to review another one because none of the selections really appealed to me.

I checked the other day, though, and saw there was a new book by local writer Andy Andrews, author of The Noticer, which I really liked.

So I signed up to review The Heart Mender. Follow the link for a brief synopsis.

It arrived in the mail today, and they sent me an extra copy to give away on my blog. I haven't read it yet, so I can't yet say that it's a great book, but if you'd like a free copy to read along with me, leave a comment on this post. I'll use a random selector thing (because I know there are spades of you out there reading this...) and let you know the winner next week.

Once there's a winner I'll ship it out to you asap! :)

In the meantime, I'll be here wishing for summer & the beach and trying to become the Sue Sylvester of my school (even though Hailey insists that if I were a Glee character there is no doubt I would be Rachel...I refuse to accept it.)

Stay tuned for a few more pictures and an exciting update on summer plans....

Sunday, April 25, 2010

as the ruin falls...

by C.S. Lewis

All this is flashy rhetoric about loving you.
I never had a selfless thought since I was born.
I am mercenary and self-seeking through and through;
I want God, you, all friends, merely to serve my turn.

Peace, re-assurance, pleasure, are the goals I seek,
I cannot crawl one inch outside my proper skin:
I talk of love - a scholar's parrot may talk Greek -
But, self-imprisoned, always end up where I begin.

Only that now you have taught me (but how late) my lack.
I see the chasm. And everything you are was making
My heart into a bridge by which I might get back
From exile, and grow man. And now the bridge is breaking.

For this I bless you as the ruin falls. The pains
You give me are more precious than all other gains.

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

chicken parmigiana & faithful disillusion

Couple of things to share with you tonight---a LUSCIOUS recipe and an article I found simply beautiful.

First, I've become addicted to two blogs: The Frugal Girl and The Pioneer Woman.

I love the frugal girl because, really, I think that I (and most people, really) can live on a good bit (read: A LOT) less than we actually do, and this mom of four has made an art of it. Her blog is filled with recipes & ideas that are tailored to those looking to save, and I love it.

Now on to the Pioneer Woman. I'm fairly certain that my dear friend Meredith is actually her ghost writer because A) she is a city-girl-turned-cowgirl, B) she is married to someone who castrates calves for a living, and C) she is so GOOD at all things cooking. AND she is hilarious.
Just like my Mere.

The Pioneer Woman, aka Ree Drummond, has a plethora of recipes on her blog that are easy and look SO good. I've only tried one because once I made it, I loved it so much that I kept making it and have gotten too distracted by the tomato sauce this recipe produces to try any of her other ones.

That is the recipe I would like to share here with you today.

And I give you......


Chicken Parmigiana. (I janked this picture from her blog)

If you love parmesan and if you love tomatoes, and if you're a chicken eater, you cannot miss this recipe. I'm telling you...it is GOOD.

The best thing about it is the sauce - trust me.

Since this post is already going to be extraordinarily long, I will simply link the recipe here instead of posting it.

Go make it, and let me know how you like it!!

I also wanted to share an article from Jill Carattini, c/o A Slice of Infinity at RZIM that I read the other day.

I think a lot about things that I see and feel vs. what is actually reality. Really, the more I think about it the more I understand that there's more of a dissonance between those things than I realize unless I slow down enough to seek truth and digest it.

Some days, the understanding that my illusions aren't reality breaks my heart; other days - more often than not, really, it is my only hope.

So partly because it speaks to the things that are on my mind and in my heart and partly because it quotes W.H. Auden, I just loved this and wanted to share it - if you do read the whole thing, read it slowly and deliberately. It's just so good.

Faithful Disillusions
Jill Carattini

"We are perpetually disillusioned. The perfect life is spread before us every day, but it changes and withers at a touch."

The author of this comment did not have the dashed hopes of a person weary of contemporary political promises; nor the disappointment of a child after his once-adored Wii lost its thrill; nor the dispirited outlook of a modern youth disenchanted with rampant consumerism and the daunting purposelessness of life.

No, long before video games existed, long before Generation Y was disillusioned with Generation X or X with the Baby Boomers before them, disillusionment reigned nonetheless. Indeed, it was a social commentator in the late 1920's who made this comment about his own disillusioned culture, words which in fact came more than a decade after a group of literary notables identified themselves as the "Lost Generation," so-named because of their own general feeling of disillusionment. In other words, disillusionment is epidemic.

As humans who tell and hear and live by stories, the possibility of taking in a story that is bigger than reality is quite likely. (Advertisers, in fact, count on it.) Subsequently, disillusionment is a quality that follows humanity and its stories around. Yet despite its common occurrence, disillusionment is a crushing blow, and the collateral damage of shattered expectations quite painful.

With good reason, we speak of it in terms of the discomfort and disruption that it fosters; we frame the crushing of certain hope and images in terms of loss and difficulty. The disillusioned do not speak of their losses lightly, no more than victims of burglary move quickly past the feeling of loss and violation.

And yet, practically speaking, disillusionment is the loss of illusion. If we are to think of it in terms of theft, it is the equivalent of having one's high cholesterol or a perpetually bad habit stolen. Disillusionment, while painful, is evidence which shows the myths that enchant us need not blind us forever, a sign that what is falsely believed can be shattered by what is genuine.

In such terms, disillusion is far less an unwanted intrusion than it is a severe mercy, far more like a surgeon's excising of a tumor than a cruel removal of hope.

The crucifixion of the Son of God is something like this. The death of God? There are no categories with which to understand it. For those who first held hope in the person of Jesus, it was the same. The death of the one thought to be the Messiah? It was an event that leveled them with disillusionment.

New Testament scholar N.T. Wright describes the force of this dissonance: "There were, to be sure, ways of coping with the death of a teacher, or even a leader. The picture of Socrates was available, in the wider world, as a model of unjust death nobly borne. The category of 'martyr' was available, within Judaism, for someone who stood up to pagans...

The category of failed but still revered Messiah, however, did not exist. A Messiah who died at the hands of the pagans, instead of winning [God’s] battle against them, was a deceiver."

For those who loved Jesus most, it took time to see that it was not hope but their hopeful illusions that died with him on the cross. Everything they thought God was, every hope for a messiah wielding power and control, every image of God winning the battle, everything they thought they knew about religion, painfully, but mercifully died on a shameful, Roman cross.

We, too, bury our illusions with the body of God. And it is no simple journey. The powerful words of poet W. H. Auden describe what is often the case in a world filled with illusion:

We would rather be ruined than changed; We would rather die in our dread Than climb the cross of the moment And let our illusions die.
Yet if we will allow it, this death can be far more than loss.

While advertisers count on our moving from one dead illusion to another, the death of Christ tells a different kind of story, a demythologizing story, which cuts through the storied layers of illusion we continually create about ourselves, the world, and others. Within such a story, disillusionment is the precursor to nothing short of resurrection. And faith is the audacity to confront our illusions with a cross.

In the words of author Parker Palmer, "[F]aith is the courage to face into our illusions and allow ourselves to be disillusioned about them, the courage to walk through our illusions and dispel them. Faith...[is] a disillusioned view of reality...that lets the beauty behind the illusions shine through."

Burying our illusions with the body of God, we mourn our losses and lament over the graves of dead dreams and expectations, hopes and visions. We stand in painful, faithful disillusionment. But so we stand aware that we may be equally startled by what emerges from the tomb.